To my favorite teacher who told me never give up
To my 5th grade crush, who I thought I really loved
To the guys I miss, and the girls we kissed
Where are you now?

To my ex best friend, don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite band, and sing alongs in my car
To the face I see, in my memories
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
'Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like i do
If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend, I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend, sorry that I screwed this up
To the ones I loved and didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

I know I'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change, but I know
I won't forget you

To the ones who cared and were there from the start
To the love that left, and took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear, I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

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It's funny the people and memories that come to mind when you're in the midst of finding yourself. Between the backstabbing friends and the rumor millers to the confidants and the favorite cousins. All of them left a piece of themselves with me. Some people gave me thicker skin, some gave me a bigger heart. All of these things have made me the person I am. And I'm grateful. There are so many people I want to thank. It's got me wondering what kind of people I will encounter in the future. What kind of person will they help me become? Will they ever know the impact they will have on my life.

With all of these thoughts running through my head, I can't help but wonder what kind of impact I'm having on other people's lives. (In a totally modest way, of course!) I mean, I know I'm not the nicest person in the world but am I causing more harm than I realize with my "grr you don't scare me" attitude? Am I being too nice to certain people? Maybe too forgiving? Perhaps I'm being too forgiving to the wrong people? Maybe I should have "taught them a lesson they'll never forget"? I don't know. I know that I probably shouldn't be focused on the impact I've had but rather the impact I am having and will have in the future.

Now while some of the lyrics don't apply to me, the song I posted above (Where Are You Now by Honor Society) is a song that puts into words what I couldn't seem to write. For the two-faced liars and the arms that held me when they made me cry, thank you. Wherever you are, know that your footprints on my life have never been lost, undervalued, or forgotten. This song is for you...