“Life is about change, sometimes it’s painful, sometimes it’s beautiful, but most of the time it’s both.” – Smallville

 If you haven't heard yet, we are moving again. And for someone who was all gung-ho for this move a couple of weeks ago, I'm having a heck of a time dealing with it.

ONE: I have to leave my church family who has been more than just a blessing to me. They brought me out of my shell and helped me heal. Even during my "I'm not going to church" phase, I still went and enjoyed the sermons and everyone's fellowship. Big changes happened in me during the past 8 months. I'm forever grateful. Thank you, KVAG.

TWO: I have to leave behind my best friend. Literally the coolest nine year old girl on the planet. I haven't told her yet, but I can honestly say I'm NOT looking forward to this conversation. Who would? I spend more time with her than my friends. Now what? So, here's to you, Sass Master, I love you! I'll miss our pool parties and Kim Possible games, your attitude and spunk, and even the Spongebob reruns. :)

You may think, "Well, you're not moving too far away. It's not like you're moving across the country."
To that I say, "True, but trust me, moving only an hour or so away is WORSE than moving across the country. You're SO CLOSE and still SO FAR. It's not like you can drop everything and hang out. Or even plan months in advance for a trip. Nope. The longest car rides ever are the ones that you travel the most. Ya know what I mean? We've traveled back and forth to New Castle and Apollo for over three years now. I swear that trip gets longer everytime. It makes for a very exhausting day. So, yeah, while we're not that far, we are not that close, either."

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together"

 Remember the video I posted a few months ago "Temporary Life" by Carly Patterson? Well, that's been a theme song since my senior year of high school. I just wanted out of this...abyss...known as Apollo. Being in the middle of no where SUCKS! And it just wasn't what I was looking for. Well, I've tried and failed at so many attempts to find myself (I know, it's not a failure, it's lesson learned!) and I was getting frustrated. Still am, to be honest. Well, I thought I had my ticket when I decided to sign up for classes this fall. I had a financial aid meeting  scheduled and decided I was "settling" and that wasn't fair. So, I cancelled everything. And that Dairy Queen job. Dang. I mean, I FINALLY found a job and I had to quit because of my allergies (severe allergy to pretty much everything, but especially peanuts) I was feeling pretty guilty about it all until we found out about the move. It all made sense. I wasn't supposed to get comfortable here. I wasn't supposed to find myself here. Thank you, Lord, for showing me this!