Several years ago, I had to take a personality profile for a parenting class my folks were in. I don't know if you're familiar with the DISC assessment, but I'm sure you can Google it. At age 13, my results were contradicting. I scored very high in areas that conflicted, which explains my mood swings! At age 15, I took it again, and I hadn't changed. According to the test I just took (it was online so I doubt it's accuracy) I am less systematic and more emotional than I used to be.(And God knows how emotional I've been lately!) I guess that's good. I've come a LONG way in five years. I guess what I'm saying is I'm used to the conflicts and whatnot of my personality. It makes me a very frustrating person sometimes. (Okay, probably most of the time...but it's obvious that I'm changing!)
It has come to my attention over the past several months that I, Caitlin, am a hopeless romantic. Yeah, I'm a little shocked, too. I guess you could say I've always been a little cynical about the whole marriage and babies thing. It's great, just not for me. And yet, my favorite movies and books are all centered around romance. My favorite songs are love songs. You could say "You're still a girl. It's okay." But that's just it - How could I have such a bad attitude about love and marriage, and still be completely taken with these stories and lyrics? Do not fear, though. I have come around to the idea. I'm making no immediate plans, though. (Unlike the rest of my family) :) I've accepted this part of me. Actually, I'm learning to embrace it.
I am an impatient procrastinator. I want things done yesterday. I want things when I want them, how I want them, and I don't appreciate being told to wait. But, on the other hand, I work best under pressure. I will put off chores, assignments, and doing other stuff until the last minute, and it usually brings good results.
Not always, but I'd like to think I've perfected the art of procrastinating over the years. Maybe not...but it works for me.
It may be one of the shallow contradictions, but I've always said I wanted a country voice. I mean, I can't stand country music as a genre. However, there are a few songs I absolutely love! Why on Earth would I want a country voice? Maybe it's the almost effortless falsetto or the smooth simplicity. Nothing nasal, of course. A jazzy voice would be nice, too. :) Instead, I'm pretty much untalented in the whole singing area. But I sing anyway! :)
I think the most obvious contradiction is that I'm easy to read but hard to figure out. I mean, I have always been a quiet and do my best to keep things to myself, but some people can see through that. I mean, I've always been a private person. So private, in fact, that aside from this blog, I don't keep a journal. I know, a writer like me not keeping a journal - it's unheard of. And while this is true, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. Granted, it's in a bulletproof case with a padded lock, but it's there. The case is glass - you can see what's going on. But why...you'll never know. Well, at least not for a while. Some stories and quirks about me aren't just told - they're earned. I have to know you're trustworthy. Not that their state secrets, but...in time...
It has come to my attention over the past several months that I, Caitlin, am a hopeless romantic. Yeah, I'm a little shocked, too. I guess you could say I've always been a little cynical about the whole marriage and babies thing. It's great, just not for me. And yet, my favorite movies and books are all centered around romance. My favorite songs are love songs. You could say "You're still a girl. It's okay." But that's just it - How could I have such a bad attitude about love and marriage, and still be completely taken with these stories and lyrics? Do not fear, though. I have come around to the idea. I'm making no immediate plans, though. (Unlike the rest of my family) :) I've accepted this part of me. Actually, I'm learning to embrace it.
I am an impatient procrastinator. I want things done yesterday. I want things when I want them, how I want them, and I don't appreciate being told to wait. But, on the other hand, I work best under pressure. I will put off chores, assignments, and doing other stuff until the last minute, and it usually brings good results.
Not always, but I'd like to think I've perfected the art of procrastinating over the years. Maybe not...but it works for me.
It may be one of the shallow contradictions, but I've always said I wanted a country voice. I mean, I can't stand country music as a genre. However, there are a few songs I absolutely love! Why on Earth would I want a country voice? Maybe it's the almost effortless falsetto or the smooth simplicity. Nothing nasal, of course. A jazzy voice would be nice, too. :) Instead, I'm pretty much untalented in the whole singing area. But I sing anyway! :)
I think the most obvious contradiction is that I'm easy to read but hard to figure out. I mean, I have always been a quiet and do my best to keep things to myself, but some people can see through that. I mean, I've always been a private person. So private, in fact, that aside from this blog, I don't keep a journal. I know, a writer like me not keeping a journal - it's unheard of. And while this is true, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. Granted, it's in a bulletproof case with a padded lock, but it's there. The case is glass - you can see what's going on. But why...you'll never know. Well, at least not for a while. Some stories and quirks about me aren't just told - they're earned. I have to know you're trustworthy. Not that their state secrets, but...in time...
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