It has been my experience when a sentence begins with, "I know you don't want to hear this, but...", the results typically prove them right. So, why on earth would they say it? If they know how it will make me feel, why would they tell me? Maybe they do not know the intensity of the emotions, but that is no reason to bring them up. And to bring them up so casually, as if it is no big deal? There are two reasons why one does not talk about something: either it means nothing or it means everything.
Some people are an open book. They do not have secrets. They are able to talk about anything and everything, and they do not hold anything back.
I am not like that. I have said it before, I am a private person. I always have been. It is not something I do intentionally. In fact, I put a lot of effort into talking to people. It has become easier over the last year. When it comes to some people, I have no problem saying what is on my mind. Others, well, it is a work in progress. It is nothing personal, and I cannot stress that enough. I guess I just care too much about what those people think. Not because I am shallow and immature, but because I really value their opinion.
That being said, I do not appreciate the endless statements that are made about multiple aspects of my life. I have said, on what seems like a daily basis, that "if I have something to tell you, I will."
I read a quote that said, "Never take someone's feelings for granted because you never know how much courage it took to show them to you." To say I completely relate is an understatement. I have always said it takes me a while to give 100% into a relationship, but once I do, I remain at 100% unless you take advantage of me and my feelings. I completely understand this behavior in other people. It is the people who give everything they have right away that confuse me. I feel as though they get frustrated or take offense to my "social awkwardness" and give up. The ones that stick around long enough to see me follow through, I hold on to for a long time. They are the ones that deserve it most.
I guess I am just a little too sensitive lately...
Some people are an open book. They do not have secrets. They are able to talk about anything and everything, and they do not hold anything back.
I am not like that. I have said it before, I am a private person. I always have been. It is not something I do intentionally. In fact, I put a lot of effort into talking to people. It has become easier over the last year. When it comes to some people, I have no problem saying what is on my mind. Others, well, it is a work in progress. It is nothing personal, and I cannot stress that enough. I guess I just care too much about what those people think. Not because I am shallow and immature, but because I really value their opinion.
That being said, I do not appreciate the endless statements that are made about multiple aspects of my life. I have said, on what seems like a daily basis, that "if I have something to tell you, I will."
I read a quote that said, "Never take someone's feelings for granted because you never know how much courage it took to show them to you." To say I completely relate is an understatement. I have always said it takes me a while to give 100% into a relationship, but once I do, I remain at 100% unless you take advantage of me and my feelings. I completely understand this behavior in other people. It is the people who give everything they have right away that confuse me. I feel as though they get frustrated or take offense to my "social awkwardness" and give up. The ones that stick around long enough to see me follow through, I hold on to for a long time. They are the ones that deserve it most.
I guess I am just a little too sensitive lately...
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