Beneath the sarcasm, quirky looks, and "whatever" attitude is an insecure girl that takes almost everything you say to heart. Whether it be positive or negative, I remember everything that is ever said to me. More importantly, I remember how it made me feel.
Believe it or not, a very senstive issue with me is my relationship status. I've never been caught up with having a boyfriend or getting all mushy over a guy. That's just not the way I am. Then, Aislinn got engaged. (I can't imagine being married at my age. The thought is almost repulsive. Why? Because I am not even close to being ready to being in that serious of a relationship.) I had to deal with the expected-but-not-acceptable comments, like, "How does it feel knowing your younger sister is getting married before you?" and "So, when are you getting engaged?" and, my personal favorite, "You're smart. You just stay away from men altogether, huh?" I'd laugh them off. Make a joke. Tell them the honest truth, that I'm just not ready. I thought if I waited it out, they would eventually end. And I was right. And then Amberlynn got engaged. And they started all over again. No big deal. I'd become a pro at handling them with wit and a smile. And when Amberlynn and Bryan decided to get married now, and have a ceremony in October, I thought, "Well, that's good. Getting it out of the way for right now... I like it." Boy, was I wrong. Now, keep in mind, the wedding was only a few hours ago, and I've already had it up to here (*swift motions above the head*) with comments. And there were only about 15 people there that gave a crap about my life. So, when it comes to questioning my relationship status: Whatever happens, happens. I'm not on the hunt for a husband. I'm just enjoying life and being 21. So, don't let your imagination get out of hand, okay? Oh, and I definitely don't want to be set up with your daughter's friend's cousin. :)
Believe it or not, a very senstive issue with me is my relationship status. I've never been caught up with having a boyfriend or getting all mushy over a guy. That's just not the way I am. Then, Aislinn got engaged. (I can't imagine being married at my age. The thought is almost repulsive. Why? Because I am not even close to being ready to being in that serious of a relationship.) I had to deal with the expected-but-not-acceptable comments, like, "How does it feel knowing your younger sister is getting married before you?" and "So, when are you getting engaged?" and, my personal favorite, "You're smart. You just stay away from men altogether, huh?" I'd laugh them off. Make a joke. Tell them the honest truth, that I'm just not ready. I thought if I waited it out, they would eventually end. And I was right. And then Amberlynn got engaged. And they started all over again. No big deal. I'd become a pro at handling them with wit and a smile. And when Amberlynn and Bryan decided to get married now, and have a ceremony in October, I thought, "Well, that's good. Getting it out of the way for right now... I like it." Boy, was I wrong. Now, keep in mind, the wedding was only a few hours ago, and I've already had it up to here (*swift motions above the head*) with comments. And there were only about 15 people there that gave a crap about my life. So, when it comes to questioning my relationship status: Whatever happens, happens. I'm not on the hunt for a husband. I'm just enjoying life and being 21. So, don't let your imagination get out of hand, okay? Oh, and I definitely don't want to be set up with your daughter's friend's cousin. :)
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