I could always
- lose more weight - no matter the state of my health
- spend more time on my appearance - even though they made comments if I spent too much time
- work out more often - apparently two hours a day wasn't enough
- love my job more - I'm sorry that managing my department and having the highest sales record wasn't dedication enough for them
- take an interest/open my mind - people are under the illusion that I'm sheltered
- loosen up, let my hair down - I'm not a party girl. Never will be.
- chill, laid-back - dirt off your shoulders, girl.
I could always be
- more outgoing, less isolated
- more educated, less lazy
- more dedicated, less half-ass-ish
- more caring, less heartless
- more in touch with my emotions, less distant
- more involved, less excuses
- more considerate, less selfish
- more independent, less needy
- more confident, less insecure
- more open to dating, less Netflix
- more of a friend, less of a confidant
- more understanding, less ignorant
- more creative, less in denial
- more accepting, less judgmental
I was never good enough. And according to those people, I was never going to be.
But this year will be different. While I will concentrate on being better, I will not do it for someone else. I will do it for me. I will do it with an open heart instead of a guilty conscious. I will work on being a better me, instead of somebody else's idea of me.
2014: The year to regain focus and control of my life.
2014: The year to regain focus and control of my life.