9.27.2014

Without You: How God Used Audrey Hepburn to Reveal My Self-Worth

What a fool I was! What a dominated fool - to think you were the earth and sky!


A timeless story. A classic movie. A soundtrack of catchy songs. A seasoned veteran in musical theater. And the most beautiful person, inside and out, to grace the silver screen.

In My Fair Lady, Henry Higgins goes after Eliza to convince her to come back. In a lady-like fit of rage, she tells him how she feels through "Without You", a song with a lot of closure and even more sass.
(I mean, just look at that still!)
 
The general synopsis of the song is that everything in this world is perfectly capable of doing their thing without Henry Higgins. Though partially responsible for helping make her the woman she is today, Eliza tells him that she will be perfectly fine without him.

I've had my share of influential people, most of whom I was certain I couldn't live without. They were infectious and I wanted to be around them all the time. They all changed my life in one way or another. When the time came for us to go our separate ways, whether it was on good or bad terms, the world was ending. Well, it felt like it at times. Over time, I came to the realization that I was moving on. I was doing fine without them. Life goes on. And when I was finally over them, they'd send me a friend request or a text message, in hopes of rekindling what once was. How do they always know the most inopportune time to contact you? So, I sat up straight, tried my best not to smirk, and channeled my inner Audrey (just in case they could see me) to politely tell them where to go. Simply put: I deserved better. I didn't need the drama that went with being friends with them. Yes, they helped me in making me the person I am today, but that, in no way, means I owe them. And I have to remind myself of that - a lot.
 
Much like the self-confidence that blossomed in Ms. Doolittle, my self-worth became evident slowly, but surely. I may not be your first choice, but that's okay. I am to other people. I may not be ready when you are, but one I will be - and it will be with the right person. I may not be what you want me to be, but I am exactly who He wants me to be. And honestly, isn't that what it all comes down to?

Without you pulling it, the tide comes in. Without you twirling it, the earth can spin. Without you pushing them, the clouds roll by. If they can do without you, Ducky - so can I!