That awkward moment when you've watched every possible tear-jerker in the world, listened to every sad song ever written, read all of your favorite sob stories, and you still have the knot of feelings in your stomach. The one that makes you want to vomit. The one that, at any moment, will make you bawl your eyes out. The one that says you've fnally learned to love people and you don't know how to deal with that. The one that says you've over-analyzed everything. The one that tells you that there are some things you cannot change. The feeling that is much more than magenta, because even you know there are far too many emotions involved. You are much too smart for such confusion, Caitlin.